It's been two years since I've updated this and subsequently since uprooting myself from Manila. Exhilarating, terrifying and everything else in between, the last 807 days (and counting) have been all about growing new roots on unfamiliar terrain.
This piece is a result of an evening I needed to re-assess and remind myself to stop worrying about not closing the gap between "where I am now" versus "where I'd rather be" fast enough. Can Saturn, perhaps, be rising ahead of time? Is that even possible??? I pounded away at my poor keyboard for a good half hour, saved text without proofreading and went to bed. The neurosis wore off a few hours later and I went back to the entry. Though I shivered at the thought of preachy word vomit...surprisingly, it didn't leave me scrambling for the "delete entry, delete entry NOW" reflex. At the very least, I was thankful for the push to write again, in a LONG time, for myself.
So, for what it's worth, preachy word vomit in 20 points means I've learned, so far, that:
- Jumping in armed with nothing but common sense, bulldozing persistence and complete faith are all you need to cushion your landing.
- What you have now is never truly permanent, nor will the present ever be stagnant by consciously choosing to keep moving.
- Going into auto-pilot mode, i.e. complacency, should be kept as brief as possible, if only to recharge spent energy—never a reason to keep cruising through.
- Fast money, easy money and material aspirations in a totally urban environment will consume you if you let it; remember how simple joys and acts of kindness, done consistently, daily, towards others will fill a void faster than any material object ever can.
- Material loss is inconsequential to the loss of effort to stay in touch with those who matter and will stand by you until the end.
- You were meant to share your talent/s: hone and grow them with the intent of inspiring others to do the same.
- There is nothing better for the soul than to be outdoors and basking in sunshine.
- You should be okay with not being liked by everyone.
- I am beyond blessed.
- To complain about minor nuances and self-established limitations are an affront to my own ability to reach a higher purpose—which is to learn, give back and be in constant communion with others towards a better world.
- The fastest way to inhibit growth is to be selfish.
- There are many opportunities to renew, restart and reconcile. Start today. A little, everyday.
- No matter how hard you work, the feeling of accomplishment should come from having exercised a set of skills to push you on to the next task. They will keep coming. It should never be solely about the money.
- I am not as good as I think I am. To remain humble and kind, open and constantly learning truths in the everyday must follow through.
- If you are not ready to love—work, circumstances, people, etc—at the very least, commit to being respectful.
- The more excuses made means a very restless, unhealthy spirit. Confront them, take charge and focus on growing deeper roots instead of shallow, uproot-able quick fixes.
- Just because you can, doesn't mean you should. Train to restrain.
- An empty heart is worse than an empty bank account, filling one should not compromise the other.
- Happiness is a daily choice, fulfillment is a gradual process—the period before reaching “it” should be likened to growing roots: the depth of growth is proportional to how strong you are when adversity/life strikes.
- Everyone is poor just as much as everyone is rich—not referring to money. I have something you don’t have, that I’d like to share with you and likewise, you have something that I don’t have, to share with me.